But, other than watching the dollars fly away, the usual problems of “diets” just didn’t seem to get in my way.
I never got that hungry, despite what you might think about juicing.
Some of my well-intentioned but tacky friends would say that I looked “a lot better.” My (always thin) mother told me she was proud of me; she had the same gleam in her eye that she had when I completed graduate school.
As a fat person, I had recognized that I was a victim of an unfair, unjust society.But I had never realized how many subtle differences there would be in negotiating the world as a member of the club, a “cool kid,” no longer someone to be, at best, ignored, or, as I so clearly remembered from my high school days, endlessly taunted.When I thought about it a bit more though, I couldn’t really blame the folks who reached out to me with kindness. We live in a society that celebrates and rewards the most ridiculous and arbitrary traits, thinness being way up there on the list. But the thing that has been brought alive to me, so vividly, is how thoroughly our evaluation of a person’s body has become our evaluation of the person.In fact, the toughest part of it was, and remains, the cost, since—unlike the commodity crops that go into junk food, and are used in animal agribusiness—fruits and vegetables aren’t government subsidized.So I recognize that juice “fasting” is a pretty privileged way to consume food.Our singles community is massive, and you're only a couple of clicks away from finding a date."Wait wait..favorite is when it says we go on vacations together HA!My initial reaction to this sudden onslaught of warmth, sweetness and gratitude from the world was suspicion that the joke was on me.Since I went from a size 16 to a six, there have been times when I have caught myself irrationally questioning people’s motives, just waiting for the paper snakes to jump out of the can.Though it was hard for me to admit at the time, his story resonated with me in profound ways.Sick to tears of not being able to see my feet beneath my stomach, and tired of feeling so ill all the time, my moment of truth boiled down to a simple shrug.